Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Heartache
Each day, each hour wondering if we will bring the three children home. Trying to guard our hearts yet trying to prepare to double our family. Dreams of meeting them for the first time, holding them, telling them we love them, crying tears of joy. Praying, praying, praying. Waiting for news, any news. Getting false hopes that crash down around us. Fighting for joy, when sadness threatens to overtake us. Fighting our flesh as we want to give in to doubt, trying so desperately to trust God with our weak faith. Praying, praying, praying. Anger, frustration, desperation, WILL ANYONE HELP US!! God has His perfect timing for everything and we are trying so hard to find the joy in that. You are our confidence Lord, you will keep us to the end. We leave our fears behind us now!!
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God in his own timing.
Praying for you as you go thru this journey.
Oh Jen, I can hear the heartache in your words. "...a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise." Psalm 51:17
We too cannot wait to hear the news that your babes are home. Sitting with you in the waiting room...
As always, in prayer for you friend.
Jen - my mom saw the pictures at your moms the other day and told me about your pursuit of them! Thanks for your openness on this blog! Your heart encourages my faith!
Oh, Jen... this post just choked me up. I was just looking at orphanage pictures with Candace the other day... she pointed at Adenech and said "nice." And she is, and I so want you to know her and the boys. I pray for your family daily!
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